Saturday, July 9th, 2005
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5:20 pm - blow me!
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ok so btown is really starting to seriously anger me. all of these so-called "friends" i have are all a bunch of bullshiters. i dont understand why it is so hard to do things you say you're going to do. i leave for school in less than 5 weeks and i really dont think its ever gonig to get here. the only times i dont feel completely unwanted is when i'm not in this stupid town or around people who dont know me. i guess theres just something about me that everyone hates and no one will tell me what it is. i wish i fucking knew so i wasnt always in the dark. these next few weeks are going to suck and probably only consist of me sitting at my house with my cats watching VH1 and gaining weight. who knew life could be SO exicting?
current mood:  aggravated
current music: Empire Records
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Monday, May 2nd, 2005
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8:44 pm - "whatever it takes, i know i can make it through"
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ok so i'm going to be really embarssed if anyone knows where that is from, then again i'm also going to be really proud if you know it, because it means you're in a secret cool club.
anyway, schools pissing me off. this week is ap testing so i'm hoping if i can get through this stuff will become a lot better. i'm really not sure how many more days of Perrine's take on poetry in english or szitas going on about stalin and hitler and the YOU'RE-A-PEEIN history. BLAHHHHHHHHH.
i wish that once all this school shit was over everything would magicaly be FINE but something tells me that's not going to happen. i wish i knew what to do to make everything just quit being so damn annoying. nothing really makes me happy anymore...I"M TIRED OF IT. colllege is not going to get here fast enough, i wonder if its too late to start in the summer session instead of fall. dont get me wrong, i mean there are things about btown i shall miss (free drinks afterhours at wholly guac, hangin with bdb and miche, zacks, and a select few other people) but i'm hoping that getting out of here and being around completely new people will work for me. who knows. something needs to change.
current mood:  blah
current music: Degrassi
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Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
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9:17 pm - long time no see.
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yeah so this is the first time in forever live journal has actually let me log on. shit's been weird.
school is so played out. for real, im not sure if i'm going to be able to make it though to the end. i really have half a mind to just drop out while i'm still alive. whatever, i'll just skip more than i do now. hahaha yeah i'm sure thats a great way to fix things...i think i'll see how low i can actually get my phsyics grade. andre made it out of chem with like, a 14, i think i have like, a 60 now so i'm well on my way to beating that shit! hahah way to set goals.
i have this love/hate relationship with work. everytime i really dread going but once i get there it's really not that bad. it's really not that bad when i leave after 4 hours 100 bucks richer. the only thing that realllly sucks about it is that i dont have ANY weekend time whatsoever. working friday night, double saturday, and a shift sunday doesnt really leave me any time to rest...or spend all the money i made. OH WAIT NO...IM SURE I CAN PUT IT ALL IN MY GAS TANK, THANKS W.
current mood:  stressed
current music: I Love The 90s Part Deux...1998
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Sunday, February 13th, 2005
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3:31 pm - stolen from my twin.
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| How to make a Julie |
Ingredients:
5 parts mercy
1 part self-sufficiency
1 part leadership |
Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Top it off with a sprinkle of lovability and enjoy! |
current mood:  bouncy
current music: muse on fuse (hahahaha that rhymes)
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Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
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7:58 pm - ...crazy....
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I may be scattered
A little shattered
What does it matter?
No one has a fit like I do
I'm the only one that's fits you
so i whipped out an old foo fighters cd and heard this lyric and thought it was pretty and approriate. things are strange, even my fourtune cookies. i got one last night at hong kong that said, "you are the star to his existance" or something like that. wtf is that shit? uhhh and then the next song on the cd had this in it:
I can be your liar
I can be your bearer of bad news
Sick and uninspired by the diamonds in your fire
Burning like a flame inside of you
Is this just desire or the truth?
So shame on me for the ruse
Shame on me for the blues
Another one returned that I'll never use
I won't go getting tired of you
I'm not getting tired
Hanging on this wire
Waiting for the day where I'll have to choose
Cursed by love so dire
One more boy for hire
One more boy to lend a hand to you
Is this just desire or the truth
I won't go getting tired of you
I'm not getting tired
...and that was weird too. why the hell is my life so strange? and WHY can't people just leave me alone. everyone is constantly pulling at me and wanting something and then turns around and FUCKS ME OVER. wahhhhh i need to get out of this place. i really think i'm going insane.
current mood: angry
current music: something on J.K. Rowling
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Tuesday, November 9th, 2004
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12:33 am - late night jacked realizations
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so drizzles been gone for 2 weeks now. today someone in one of my classes was sayin how they liked the name andre and i thought about him. usually everytime i was up doing school stuff he was always online and always there to distract me from doing waht i needed to and i miss that so much. right now i'm sitting here, not as messed up as i need to be off these fucking pill, watching something about toby keith on cmt and like, crying over the fact that i miss andre and havent talked to him in 2 weeks. i cant remember the last time i went two weeks without any communication with him whatsoever. i hate late nights. i hate burlington. i hate school. i hate senior year. i hate ap european. i hate myself for taking ap european, and ap english while we're on the subject. wahh.
current mood:  depressed
current music: CMT
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Tuesday, October 26th, 2004
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9:58 pm - simple pleasures for simple julies
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so this past weekend i went to the state fair...i haven't had that much fun in a really long time. milking a cow was probably the highlight of the evening. the bunny barn was pretty cool too. oh wait no, the fried oreos were dank.
drizzle left on sunday. that's so depressing. i'm just glad that he'll be back for my birthday. everyone was freaking out and i mean, i was sad, but it's not like he's being shipped off to iraq, it's just boot camp! he can call and write and everything will be fine. i swear some people overreact.
last night i went and saw pretty girls make graves and death cab. what an amazing show. i was totally not expecting to enjoy pgmg as much as i did. they were so kickass. i think it was the fact that there were 2 girls in the band and one was a keyboardest/spoon player/tamborine girl and hse was the shit. i saw her afterwards and wanted to walk up to her and tell her she was so cool and on stage she just emitted coolness but i couldnt work up the balls to go talk to her so i didnt. but she was awesome. oh adn dcfc played some stuff from the photo album and that made me really happy. the stuff off that album is so mysterious. i think that's the word i decided fits it best today.
current mood:  tired
current music: sex and the city
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Monday, October 4th, 2004
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8:45 pm - just a thought
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so today when i came home from school i went to the mailbox to see if i had any mail. i opened up the mailbox to find a bright red envolope from Temple. this was a huge surprise since i had sent off for an application literally 2 months ago. about time. anyway, one afternoon a week i usually go on this college kick where i actually do things regarding my applications and whatnot. today i filled out the Temple app minus the 1 (and only) short essay. i've already sent off the missouri application and now i'm just waiting to take the SAT so the stupid college board will send them my scores. the south carolina app is sitting on my kitchen table ready to be sent off but i dont see any point in doing it until i take the SAT again. i'm not applying to georgia until the regular admissions deadline and i'm pretty sure the same goes for maryland. i'll have to check my spreadsheet.
yes, i created a 'Colleges i MAY apply to' spreadsheet that includes the application fee, deadlines, if it requires and essay or not and if i've sent it off. yes, i'm a loser...i created a spreadsheet...for fun. great.
anyway, point being: this whole college thing is KIND of a big issue. wherever decides to accept me (if anywhere) and wherever i decide to go pretty much decides the rest of my life. its strange to think that maybe i'll be meeting my husband here int he next couple years. i pray i havent already met him because there are very few people i know of right now i would even considering dating, much less marrying. it's very scary and this realization just makes the entire process about a million times more stressful than before.
what if i was destined to go to missouri but decide i dont want to be that far and go to south carolina instead when the love of my life was at missouri all along! see this delima i'm having? life's scary! and i'm freaking out.
...group should have lasted longer.
current mood: stressed
current music: some show on Pax, Model Citizens, interesting
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Sunday, September 19th, 2004
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3:39 pm - i think i'm entering menopause
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yeah so friday me and megan had hotflashes during first peroid. during first period we had to go into the back of the auditorium where they apparently had the heat on or something. it was absolutely sweltering and i felt like i was in hell. this realization, however, isn't too startling since williams and hell are so much alike.
friday night was a blast. haha got that party started real early. hanging out with people i usually dont hang out with is fun. so is sleeping in the back of foys car because i was BORED out of my mind. oh yeah and who and forget watching porn with 3 boys. oh yes, quality entertainment. i guess it wouldnt have been too bad if the porn wouldnt have been really cheap/bad and the guy in it wasnt like, 50 years old. nasty.
saturday i slept in and then went to the greek fest with mere. actually, we went shopping and then to greek fest. i think i decided i want to become greek...either that or have a greek wedding. murfie was dancin and it was soooo cool and looked way fun. that's why i want to be greek. i wish i had some cool heratige that i could learn a dance. BLAH to being boring. came home from g-boro and ann and mere came to my house and picked me out clothes. went to harrisons and laughed my ass off, mere and brian ford should never be togheter in the same room EVER again.
ahahha this morning me and mere watched E! with her dad. i'm determined to win everyone over. doug said that E! was like "People magazine on tv." yes sir, it is.
current mood:  cheerful
current music: CMT's Top 40 Done Me Wrong Songs
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Sunday, September 12th, 2004
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11:40 pm - great weekends
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so last weekend was fun. college hopping is always a blast. and hanging out with my wonderful twin is always great, even if she was grounded by martin.
this past weekend i was in philly to look at Temple. me j-dawg and daddy stayed with our family that lives there and had a wonderful time. i got to sleep a lot and enjoy tons of amazing italian food. that side of my family is italian so they know how to cook. temple was really nice. it's not in the best part of the city but the actual campus is sooo neat. there are lots of trees and greeness to be in the inner city. i've cut the number of schools i'm applying to so i'm not as stressed as i had been. i convinietly cut 2 of the schools with huge, long applications. what can i say, i'm lazy and i dont feel like i need to waste my time and money on an application to a school that i have no chance of getting inot anyway.
yes i love being a senior. it's so awesome. tomorrow's the college fair. last year i had av ery bad experience at the college fair. a girl i had never seen before came up to me, patted my stomach and said "are you preganant honey?" yes, i cried. i hate the college fair.
current mood:  good
current music: Insomnica with Dave Attell
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Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
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4:31 pm - how exciting!
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Senses Fail and Silverstein - Wednesday October 20th
Death Cab for Cutie - Sunday and Monday October 24th and 25th
...who's with me!?!?!?!?!? ahhh i'm wayyy excited about october. but really excited about Thursday Setember 16 because that's when The OC starts back up again. At least i have Real World Philly to keep me going starting Sept. 7th. hahaha fall is my favorite season because of the new tv lineups. i'm so lame, but i love it!
current mood: jubilant
current music: I Love the 90s - 1999
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Saturday, August 28th, 2004
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10:59 pm - hellion...
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ahah what a fun weekend. like for real. friday night was tons of fun for sure. i made lots of new friends at gaygo and mish called me! hahahahaha woah anyway. saturday me and kate went and ate with some people at ACC and then i went home and showered. ugh i needed a shower so bad. haha i woke up at kates and my bangs were like, sticking straight up. definitely had that straight out of 1985 look going on. justin said i looked like a clown cause i had on kates clothes and needless to say shes a little bit taller than me. after taking a shower i decided that i didnt feel like wearing clothes the rest of the day. underwear is just so much more comfortable. me and lamb decided we were the same person. that was fun. me and jdawg went to dinner cause my dad and brother went to the race this weekend and i felt bad making her eat by herself. it was so dank. i got a steak and it was definitely woah good. def need to eat more steak. afterwards i went to ann's and that's where i am now. i looked on her computer for a long time at college stuff and requested applications. its so stressful. i'm not goign to get into college anywhere and i'm going to have to go to app. i really dont want to go to app. i will feel like a failure if i go to app. grrrrrr. somebody better want me. hoepfully i'll like temple when i go up in a couple weeks. god merediths getting hyper. shes acting like a 3 year old but ig uess thats' not too shocking.
current mood:  awake
current music: mere's dumb laugh
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Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
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9:29 pm - ohhhh what a night....
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so yeah the past 2 days have been fun. yesterday hannah gave me my hookah present from israel! it's sooooo cool. i still can't believe i got j-dawg to smoke out of it. that definitely made me the proudest daughter ever. oh and i'm allowed to use it in my basement so we'll for sure be having hookah parties. i cant wait!
today was good. a new girl is in like 8 of my classes. she moved here from miami, i feel sorry for her. i cant even begin to imagine what it must be like moving to BURLINGTON. what a bummer. anyway, got my haircut afterschool, well not cut but trimmed. cant have those bangs getting out of control! uhh then i went walking with mere. actually it's more like mere drags me along edgewood on a 3 mile walk but that's fine. it's all the same. went to dinner with stuart at sal's. great times. our waitress tried SO hard to have a personality. there's a really hot guy that works at sals. i'ms ure he's like, 25 but i kept on seeing him because of the location we were seated and that made me happy also. yeah then i realized i locked my keys in my car. try as we may the two of us could just not get the damn door unlocked. alas i had to call daddy to come bail me out.
the olympics are cool. the oc needs to come back on.
current mood: discontent
current music: olympics
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Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
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9:17 pm - laterrr...
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ok so first off i hate williams high school and alamance - burlington school system. i've ranted so much in the past 3 days that i dont think there's a person i've come into contact with that hasnt heard my entire speech. sometimes i tend to do that over things that really tick me off. i actually have a list of speeches, if you're interested in hearing one sometimes just ask, there's a nice variety to choose from.
i turned to the teen choice awards and behind the presenters was this girl stripping out of her clothes down to her bathing suit on the beach. it's hard to explain but it's weird. i did turn at just the right time to see lindsay lohans hot red-headed big boobed ass (gotta love 'em!) walk up on stage and win an award for mean girls. that was such a funny/true movie about high school. she's really hot. and her boobs were all hanging out. i think they're real. why wouldnt they be? oh god i cant wait, ashlee simpson is performing! i was watching silence of the lambs but i said BYE clarece and decided to say HEY to teen choice awards.
current mood:  amused
current music: teen choice awards
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Monday, July 26th, 2004
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12:22 am - "we should all go work with dogs"
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so today during church i got really upset and offended by what the asst. preacher was saying. it upsets me that i'm supposed to believe things that i totally DONT agree with. according the seromon today i think i'll be going to hell for being pro-choice and being an lgbt rights supporter. i thought these things were good to be invovled in but apparently not
ok wow i'm freaking out. on six feet under they're (clare and her art school friends) having a sing along to death cab; granted they're on some X-like drug or something but it's sooo cool. oh and earlier Brenda was listening to one of those songs from the OC soundtrack. the one that's like, "it's just a ride, it's just a ride, dont be scared now close your eyes" or something like that. they have good music on six feet under. this episode and the last have been really odd. the last one was acutally really intense. i just sat watching with my mouth gaping open.
entourage is a really funny show. who knew that marky mark could write/produce AND play a drug dealer on a show. this episode was espically great. the boys bought a rolls royce that cost 319,000 bucks. as soon as they rolled out of the dealer lot the next shot was of them smoking a blunt. i was wow-ed. that is so much cash to be spending on a car to simply 'break' it in that fast. just makes me giggle to myself.
today me and j-dawg went semi shopping. she kind of bribed me and made me go bc when she woke me up this morning to go to church she casually said "i'm going to greensboro after church if you want to go." so of course i got up. anyway, i ended up finding this uber-cool Ralph Lauren dress that i'm going to wear to cotillion (if i have a date). if cotillion doesnt work out then ill wear it to prom. i'm so excited about it. it's navy and striped and makes me look skinny. who knew one could fall in love with a dress?
current mood: awake
current music: ashlee simpson - surrender (stuck in my damn head)
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Monday, July 19th, 2004
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8:49 pm - "it's an expression of harmony, and that isnt of this world"
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i really wanna see monster and girl with the pearl earring. i think me and my brother are going to go see the new bourne movie. right now i cant remember the name. is it the bourne supremecy that's coming out or the bourne suspect? haha whatever, we're goign to rent the first and go see the 2nd, as a brother and sister. how cute. we actually used to go see the star wars movies together when they came out because it was like his childhood and mine meshing together.
center stage is on tv and i'm trying to figure out why i loved this movie so much. yes, i used to dance and all but how did i not notice the horrible acting? these kids can dance but their acting definitely could use a tune up. gah and that lead girl always makes me mad. shes so dumb and looks like somebody i know. oh and if i ever saw a ballet like cooper nielsons i would LOVE it. haha modern ballet...is that an oxymoron?
today i talked to my twin for a long time while at work. i'm so excited, we're going to do lunch on wednesday! i miss my twin!! since the 2 bosses are gone this week plus the lady that answers phones and sits at the front desk they have me answering phones and such. i'm not allowed to leave the desk since they're so short staffed and it kind of limits what i can do. today all i did was sit at the desk, answer phones, talk on the internet, and do research on alcapulco for me and fleeze trip. gahhh cannot WAIT till next summer. get hype!
duuuude i just realized i've had my livejournal for like, over a year now! aww i wonder when my live journal birthday was. i'll have to look that up.
current mood:  satisfied
current music: Center Stage
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Thursday, July 15th, 2004
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Monday, July 12th, 2004
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4:40 pm - STOP THE INSANITY
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ok wow, i'm watching oprah and she's definitely wearing Nelly's Applebottom jeans. yeah i love that. but our country has absolutely lost it. since when did every food product have to be carb free? they have carb free salad dressings, ice cream, yogurt, sodas, and who knows what all else. it's just crazy to me. if dr. adkins was still alive he'd probably be laughing at the american people. i, personally love carbs. bread and cheese are two of my favorite things. i know what fat free cheese tastes like and its gross! do they have carb free cheese? probably so. i've had this carb solution yogurt shake things and they werent that bad but why are carbs so evil? even ashlee simpson is doing low carb! even though i want her hair cut i dont understand why she is lowering her carb intake! ahhhhhhhhhh !!!
current mood:  irritated
current music: Oprah - the applebottom edition
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Thursday, July 8th, 2004
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11:51 pm - another year older, but still no wiser
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today was my brothers 27th birthday. he amazes me. tomorrow night i think we're going to hooters for his birthday. we, of course, being mom dad and sister. i dont know about anyone else but i personally would not want to go to hooters on my birthday with my family. (key word being family) oh well, i suppose it will be entertaing seeing my mother there.
me and my dad watched queer eye last night. i'm almost positive he likes that show more than i do. actually, i think he just likes it because carson is really funny. either way, we bond over queer eye.
summer reading is not going so good. i have 100 pages left in a farwell to arms. i'm never going to finsih owen meany. i know everyone says its good and all but i just dont think i can read that much in a month during summer. maybe i have ADD or something but i cannot seem to sit and just knock this reading out. since i dont have anyone sitting and making me do stuff i dont do it. i watch tv or go swimming or just sit around, summer reading is a cursed practice--damn the block sechdule.
current mood: okay
current music: kanye west on that hardrock live thing on mtv
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Saturday, July 3rd, 2004
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11:11 am - YOU CAN DOUBT ME NOW
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during the summer nobody updates, and nobody comments. (except for my twin) i went to yearbook camp...that was fun. NOT. wake has a really pretty campus though. i had a lot of fun last night. mrs williams took me and bri out to georgia's kitchen for dinner and woah, it was SO good. i haven't eaten that well in a long while. afterwards bri convinced me to go to moterrays with her, ceasar and some of their friends. turned out to be a great time with all that. meeting new people is always good for me. my mom is gone to the beach and i love it. there's just so much less bull shit when shes not around. granted, she is constantly calling me and annoying me but thats ok i suppose.
current music: kickin it - Peaches Ft. Iggy Pop (HOT)
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